Gotta be me

              This is not how I expected things to be at this point in my life. I like being in a relationship better than the dating scene, especially at my age of 45 in a few days. I got all the wild times out of my system in my early twenties and got married at 25. I thought that was it. We bought a house, mortgage would be payed off  before I would be sixty. Perfect. I was happy. I did enjoy being married, most of the time. By the age of 38 I was divorced. Partly my fault I'm sure, but her cheating on me didn't help. So 38 and single again. Have a new mortgage, that will never be paid off. My retirement plan is death. I've had two relationships since my divorce, both lasted about 3 1/2 years. That seems to be the new breaking point, where I screw it all up. It's gotta be me. I even have a friend, whom I've known for 20 something years, upset with me right now because I said  that someone with no kids can put more into a relationship than someone that does. Am I wrong?  I'm the first one to admit that I'm not perfect. But it seems that I have more blame put on me than I deserve. Shelly is leaving next weekend and I can't wait to have my house to myself. She talks about me to her friends on the phone like I can't hear her. It gets really annoying. I like being in a relationship, but I'm looking forward to some alone time.  Just felt like venting alittle. Thanks for listening, Kevin

Still Here

             Just wanted to do a quick post to let everyone know I'm still here. Thought about doing a post a few times and just couldn't put one together. Shelly is also still here. It's going on three months since we broke up and she is still living in my house. We are getting on each others nerves constantly and can't make it through a day without arguing. Kinda makes it tough to part on friendly terms, like we originally had planned. Thank God I have some great friends that have helped me keep my sanity( somewhat.lol ). My friends have been there for me, going shooting, going to see bands, just hanging out talking, texts, phone calls, e-mails( from the other side of the world ) and etc. Without all of that, I think I'd be out of my mind. Thank you to all of my friends and thanks for listening, Kevin