Merry Christmas Eve!

     Just felt the need to do a quick post. Only worked half day today, then had a lunch buffet at work. Then had plans to meet up with some co-workers for a beer or two. Wound up running into a bunch of past co-workers and an ex-girlfriend from right after my divorce. She and I haven't seen or spoken to each other in about 5 years. I have felt bad about the way some things ended between us. I have tried to keep in touch with her son as much as I can. He and I text and talk from time to time, he is the closest I think I'll come to knowing what it's like to be a father. I have told him some messages to pass on to his mom, found out today some got passed along. Lol. And, before anyone gets the wrong idea, nothing really bad happened. No cheating, no beating, nothing like that. I was wrong with some things. We had a great conversation, some catching up and most important, I got to apologize for things that have been bothering me. It didn't work out between us, but she is a really good person and I wish her nothing but the best. She deserves it. So, my Christmas season started off really cool. Hope all of yours did too! Thanks for listening, Kevin...............P.S. Merry Christmas everyone! Love ya!

Age Realization

           First off, I gotta say that I'm in a weird mood today, feeling a little depressed. I'll probably read this post tomorrow and think "Wtf was I thinking?". But, I started doing this blog to vent and say what ever is on my mind at that moment. I look back at past posts and some of them I would not have written or would have written different. But, this blog is like my public diary. It's great to see all the views that my blog has had and by so many countries, I've even made a friend because of my blog, Rose, who's on the other side of the globe. And that's all great(especially Rose), but, that's not why I do this blog. It has become a therapy for me. So, with that being said, here's what's on my mind. I'm starting to realize my age......mentally. Physically, I've known my age for a long time. I have beat my body up over the years, between the things that shouldn't go into a body, physical labor that I really wasn't big enough for and a few car accidents, one of which I flipped a car onto it's roof on the highway. All of this has taken a toll on me physically. In my late twenties I was a bricklayer and screwed up my back. Hence, my career change. But, up until recently, I think that I have still felt like I'm in my twenties.....mentally. I've been realizing lately that I'm not. I'm 46 years old, single now for the longest that I've ever been and my day to day company is a great dog and cat. Most of my interaction with people is at work. There are over 500 people where I work, there are some really good looking women. One of which I started talking to only recently(she thought I looked mean! Lol). Now, this girl is gorgeous, but, I'm old enough to be her father, so, I haven't hit on her. But, I have asked her to fix me up with her mother. Lol. Like I said, I realize I'm getting old! The bottom line is that it sucks when you start to realize your age. Thanks for listening, Kevin

The Seawall

     I recently picked up my mom and we had a mother/son afternoon. One of our main objectives for the afternoon was to put a box of greens at my grandparent's headstone. After that was done, we had a great seafood lunch and visited some spots from our past. The afternoon was a trip down memory lane. One of the places we stopped at was the seawall in Lordship (Stratford), Ct. The seawall is one of my favorite places. It's a special place for me. It was the last place that I was at with both of my grandparents 35 years ago. My grandmother passed away two days after our visit to the seawall and my grandfather passed away two months after that. They were both great people and passed away way too young. The Seawall......probably nothing special to most people, but, a very special place for me. I had a great afternoon with my mom and our trip down memory lane. I gotta do it more often, life is too short. Thanks for listening, Kevin.

One of my favorite pictures. My grandparents when they were dating.

Betsy the 2nd's first trip to the seawall
 

A zoomed in view from the seawall