Never gonna be the same

    I really miss Shelly. She has changed so much since the loss of her daughter. I realize it's never going to be the same again, and she is going through the worst possible thing she could go through, but that doesn't mean that I can't miss her. Shelly's here in body but not in spirit most of the time. She is not the same person I got back together with 3yrs ago and definitely not the same person I was with 20 something years ago. It's not her fault, but it's not mine either. The loss of her daughter has changed both of our lives drastically. Shelly is in such a deep depression, understandably, and it has rubbed off on me. I try my best to be there for her and be understanding, and I know I fall short sometimes. I have no children of my own, so I don't truly know the feeling of being a parent, so I absolutely can't imagine the feeling of loosing a child. So I live with this constant feeling of helplessness, because there is nothing I can do to help this person that I love so much. I'm sure (and hope) that we will both evolve from this horrible experience. We won't be the same though, and like I said, I really miss Shelly. Thanks for listening, Kevin