Non-Solitary

        I have never been a solitary person. I have always enjoyed being around people much more than being alone. I have always enjoyed talking. I probably talk too much and about more than I should sometimes, especially when I'm going through tough times, like my divorce (sorry Jim. I know I still owe you therapist fees). And I'm sure I drive friends crazy sometimes, but, thank God, they keep talking to me. This need to be around people is easier to achieve the younger you are. In my school years I always had my after-school friends to hang out with and flip baseball cards, skateboard, bike ride, shoot bow and arrow and BB guns and etc. In my late teens I still had a great group of friends around me, but now I was sexually active, so I also had girlfriends. Some were short term relationships, some were much shorter. Life was great. This continued into my twenties. My early twenties were the best times of my life so far. At the age of 25 I got married. I was married for 13 years and over that time friends go in different directions. And looking back now, I should have done some things different, but I had a wife to keep me company. When my marriage ended I should have spent some time alone, but there was that fear of being alone, so I jumped into another relationship with a co-worker. We lived together for over 3 years and when that relationship ended, I jumped into a relationship with Shelly. I've been single now for almost a year and met some great women, reconnected with ex's and great female friends. I spoke to Shelly yesterday for the first time in a long time. And it was cool! We had a great conversation. I wish her nothing but the best, she deserves it. During my conversation with Shelly, it dawned on me, I make a much better friend than I do a boyfriend.. I started going down the ex road again recently. They are ex's for a reason I guess. Not working out that well. Lol. Getting back to the great woman that I have been talking to, neither one of us are ready to take it to next level. We'll see what the future holds. I've also been talking to a great friend from my past and I gotta admit that I look forward to her phone calls. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I'm not a solitary person. Thanks for listening, Kevin